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Find Balance. Goal.

How do I find equal balance in my life?  I thought I was doing a great job up until this point. I get upset with myself because it seems like lately all I do is yell at my kids for not doing their chores, get upset with husband because he let them go play without doing their chores first. I come home late from work after a 15 hour work day, exhausted, and yet I panic because my house is a mess.  My anxiety definitely gets the best of me.  I like to have a clean house, but with four of us living here, I feel like we should all have a part in keeping it clean.   Yet, that is my expectation.
I am working on finding balance. 
Balance in my household, for all of our sakes.
Balance in my OVERLY demanding job, because I love my job but I can easily hate it.
Balance with my fitness and weight, since I feel like a lardass.
Balance with not drinking as much.  God I love my brewskies.
Speaking of brewskies, yesterday was the first day I didn't get home and crack a cold on. I wanted it, but I decided against it.  Its a huge contribution to my weight gain.  I need to mellow out.  


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